Patience

I found a quote the other day: “Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.” unknown.


It has been two weeks since my surgery.  I have not been able to use my arm, thus not been able to make anything in the shop.  It seems like it has been a month, not two weeks.  For the first week I really couldn't do much of anything, so I rested and healed.  The second week I found a way to type with my bad arm without moving it, so I was able to work on the computer.  I design (draw) with my right hand, so that was out of the question, but I found I could catch up on all the work I dislike, like accounting.  I also have been researching and getting inspired.  


I am drawn to fluid designs.  I have a number of facebook friends that are turners and have been looking at their work.   It is not jewelry, but the fluid lines of turnings have inspired a couple of new designs.  I can't get to the shop for another week, but I am getting prepared.


Having to wait, being told to wait, is often the hardest thing to do.  When we make a conscious choice to wait, it is our choice, but not being in control for those with personalities like mine, is the hardest thing.  It has been difficult, but it has also been a good lesson.  I can do other things, if I can let go of what I can not do.  


I'll be honest, I am a bit OCD when it comes to some things.  I have to finish things.  If I start a project, I think about every aspect of it till it is done.  Before my surgery I had a couple of unfinished projects, and I have managed to let them go.


I am not sure if it is patience, but i know that they will get done in time, and that I can not finish them now.  For me that is a big step.  Many of you reading this are probably laughing and wondering what I am talking about.  Others know exactly what I am talking about.  


Sometimes we have to let go of what we can not control.  In my case I have to wait, but still find something that I can do.  Sometimes it isn't what we want to to, but what we can do.